Here's the Card...

Yesterday Morgan and I went down to Fort Worth and then to Mineral Wells to have dinner with the family. My mom's side of the family gets together every Friday night for dinner. When I was single, I tried to go as much as possible. Now that I am married and live quite some distance away, I haven't gone. So we finally made the trip last night and I enjoyed it so much. I've missed those dinners. I was also so excited that one of my cousin's (who is more like a sister) and her hubby made it. Anyway, I was finally able to get the Father's Day Card from my dad that I said I would post. It's got to be the best Father's Day Card for him. Once my brother and I got the same father's day card for my dad. Really? Out of allllllllll of the cards out there, we got the same one for him. haha! Wish I could have been the one to get this card for my dad. ;)

HE GOT ALL KINDS OF JOBS-FIXING YOUR BIKE, KILLING BUGS,
CHECKING FOR MONSTERS UNDER THE BED SO YOU COULD SLEEP.
HE HELPED YOU MOVE, CHECKED YOUR OIL, SLIPPED YOU
EXTRA CASH WHEN YOU WERE BROKE. THE REWARDS WEREN'T
BIG, BUT HE DIDN'T CARE. IT WAS ENOUGH FOR HIM TO WATCH
YOU GROW, HEAR YOU LAUGH, KNOW THAT YOU WERE SAFE
AND HAPPY AND WOULD GROW UP TO BE REASONABLY CONTENT.
AND WITHOUT EVER EXCHANGING A WORD ON THE SUBJECT, HE TAUGHT
YOU ALL ABOUT LOVE-HOW IT'S VERY OFTEN IN THE LITTLE
THINGS. THAT IT MAKES A WHOLE LIFETIME OF DIFFERENCE
TO A CHILD. THAT HE'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE, THIS UNSUNG
AND UTTERLY DEVOTED MAN, YOUR ONE AND ONLY DAD.
THERE'S SIMPLY NO WAY TO COUNT THE WAYS YOU'VE CARED,
THE TIMES YOU'VE BEEN THERE. HOW LUCKY FOR ME
TO HAVE A DAD LIKE YOU.

It's like this card was written for my dad.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

I have to work tomorrow so I won't get to see my dad. I must say, I really need to start paying more attention when I sign up for my schedule. So in case you read this tomorrow dad...and hopefully not tonight...hope you have a great Father's Day!!! Thanks for being the loving, supportive father you have always been. I hear my friends talk about some of their dad's and they are not as fortunate to have such wonderful dads. I feel so blessed to have you and all you do for Morgan and Me. Even Becky wants to adopt you as her dad! :)You are such a strong man and you're always so friendly and have never met a stranger. I need to quote the Father's Day Card Brian gave you this year because it was perfect! I'll get it from you some day and post it on here for all to see! We love you and want you to know you are greatly appreciated. Lillie Bear loves you too and after all, you are her favorite...even though you went to the truck the day I got her. haha! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

P.S. MOM~I THINK YOU'RE THE GREATEST MOM ON EARTH!!!

Good Bye Jill

Our sweet Jill has decided she wants a change of "nursing" in her life so she's leaving us. :( I love her and she's so sweet and fun to be around. I know I will still see her and hangout with her, but she was also a good nurse to work with!!! She will be missed. Some of us went out last night for her good bye dinner so here are some pictures...

Our beautiful Jill. I don't think she could ever take a bad picture. I tried to make her but she wouldn't do it. haha!

Okay, I look a little goofy in this picture because someone just grabbed my booty!

Jill, Me, Lydia, and Amy
Looooove these girls!!! They are the best and make me smile!

Sarah, Courtney, Michelle, and Jill...I think a couple of these girls need to be introduced to sunscreen. :)

Amy & Sarah...such pretty girls!!!

My bud, Lydia. We some how managed to get in trouble with Rob and Morgan and we have no clue what we did wrong. Actually, we might have some idea but we disagree with them. Oh well, we still had fun!!!

I am fine!!!

Okay, so apparently after yesterday's blog I have some people worried about me. No, I am not about to go jump off a cliff or anything. I was just having one of those days yesterday. It's something that's always in the back of my mind, until yesterday and I just broke down. All is good today. Like my friend Lydia said, we know too much and that scares us. Working in post partum we see everything from the good to the bad. Sometimes I wish I could be oblivious to everything and not have all the knowledge I have to scare myself!!! I worked today and as you know, I love the girls I work with!!!! A girl I work with was saying she doesn't know if she wants children and if she does, it won't be for at least 10 years. The girls who have children were making us smile listing all the things we can do because we don't children like vacations, sleep, etc. Don't get me wrong, I want nothing more than to have a child, but I feel much much much better today. I took care of 6 patients today and all of them were in there 30's. I'd say 90% of our population is over 30. So I took a deep breath and realized that Morgan and I have PLENTY of time to have sweet babies. What's the rush? Don't get me wrong, if my pregnancy test showed 2 pink lines tomorrow I would be the happiest girl on earth. But until then, I will just enjoy my one on one time with Morgan because it is something we will never get back...or at least not for 18 years. hehe! Plus, this will give us more time to continue to save money. Little ones are soooo expensive! It's amazing how much one little person needs and how much a little person can cost. I know, so worth it though and I can't wait for the day until I get to pour my heart and soul into caring for one. So until then, I will enjoy all my time with Morgan, our dinner dates, vacations, our spur of the moment adventures, sleeping in on my days off, and anything else I feel like doing in that moment. :)

Poem

I debated if I should share this with everyone. What I am going through today is personal for me. Today has been a very difficult day for me. I have practically cried all day long off and on. I am not one that cries, but I broke down today. (I'm okay Mom and Dad. :))Probably haven't cried this hard in over 3 years. Morgan and I are finally to the point where we want to start trying to have a child. Morgan was ready from the day we got married, but I wanted to wait a year. It's been a year now so I am ready. I am terrified that we will not be able to get pregnant for several reasons. I have always felt like if God wants us to have children, we will. My biggest fear in life has always been that I will not be able to get pregnant. I think Satin is really playing on that fear of mine today. I know God's timing is perfect. It always has been for my life. God has never let me down. Has He always given me everything I have asked for? No. But in hind sight, that was the best thing for me. He's always guided my life and I have always leaned on Him and searched for His guidance. So why am I so worried now? May it be tomorrow or several years from now, I hope and pray that when God's timing is right for us, we will be blessed with a child. God sees the entire picture for us and wants to protect us. The hardest thing for me is that I think about my parents and Morgan's parents. I want them and our children to really know each other. My mom's mom died a year before I was born and I feel like I missed out on such a great woman. Three of Morgan's grandparents died when he was really young so he never really knew them. I just don't want any of this to happen for our children. Morgan and I are both blessed to have such wonderful parents and the thought of our children never having the chance to really get to know them, breaks my heart. I know this is personal to put on a blog, but I know a lot of our family and friends read this. Please keep us in your prayers that we will understand God's will for our lives be it that we have 5 kids, or no kids. My friend Leigh Taylor sent me this poem today and I found it very inspirational and I hope you do too. I feel so blessed that God has surrounded us with family and friends that know how to lift us up in our time of need and despair.


Desperately, helplessly, longingly I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
and the Master so gently said, Child you must wait.
""Wait? You say, 'wait'! my indignant reply."
Lord I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked and am claiming your word.
My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance and YOU tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a 'yes' and a go ahead sign,
or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!
Then quietly, softly I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again 'you must wait'.
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "so I'm waiting....for what?"
He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine
And He tenderly said 'I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run
All you seek I could give and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You'd never experience the fullness of love
As the peace of my Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save for a start
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked,
Of an infinite God who makes what you have LAST
You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
But oh, the loss, if I lost what I'm doing in you!
So be silent, My child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' it may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still, WAIT.

Lillie & GiGi

Yesterday a friend that Morgan has grown up with got married. Luckily, I didn't know them too well. I say this because yesterday morning I wasn't feeling so good. I didn't say anything to Morgan because I knew he really wanted me to go with him. If I had told him how I felt, he would've told me to stay home. So we drove 2 1/2 hours to Oklahoma for the wedding. It finally hit me right before the bride walked down the aisle. I then spent the remainder of the wedding in the bathroom sick. I actually passed the bride on the way out and told her she looked really pretty...beautiful girl with the prettiest eyes I have ever seen. Wait, no, I didn't literally pass her while she was walking down the aisle. She was still in the back about to walk down. We left right when it was over so I didn't even get to enjoy the reception. Blah! It was at Beavers Bend State Park which I was really excited about seeing. The little I saw was beautiful. We're hoping to all go up there as a family and camp. Matt, Morgan's brother, was camping up there for the weekend. His wife, Melissa, was in Florida so that meant we got to dog sit GiGi. She's a sweet dog but she has issues. Not sure if she was beat as a puppy because she always cowards down when you go to pet her and she whimpers. She cries if everyone is not in the same room together. Lillie and GiGi are best buds so I am sure Lillie was excited to have her spend the night. Here are some pictures...






The calm before the storm. Lille resting quietly in her bed before GiGi arrived to spend the night.















GiGi is a weird dog. Likes to sit by the door. Doesn't matter whose house she is at, this is what she does. Lillie is trying to be sweet and make her feel welcome in our house. :)

Lillie trying to figure out what on earth GiGi is doing...she had no idea that this was possible and something she could do. Where is GiGi?

GiGi is under our bed. I guess that's where she feels the safest. We were going to let her sleep under there but when we turned the lights off, she thought that meant play time and she could run around like a wild dog. To the living room she went. She woke us up at 0700 today. ugh! So glad Lillie takes after her mama and likes to sleep in because there is no way I could handle this every day.

Best Friends!!! They love each other.

Picnik

Howdy! Just want to let y'all know about picnik...could I sound anymore "hickish" in that statement?! HAHAHA! Ever since I have been with Morgan I have noticed that I am talking with more of an accent. I LOVE his accent. It's so adorable. Anyway, onto the purpose of this post...there is an Internet site called http://www.picnik.com/ . It's great. You can do all sorts of things with your pictures. For example, this picture above I flipped it, changed the color and added a colorful border. The picture below I cropped it, added two different types of borders and text. They also have symbols you can add. Two of my friends introduced me to it a while back and I love it. Be careful, it can get addicting. Go have fun!!!

Busy Weekend!

This past weekend was sooo busy for me!!! It's funny how I can go weeks without anything planned and then bam, everything is on the same weekend. I didn't even get to go to everything I wanted to because it just wasn't possible. It's funny how life works like that sometimes. I worked Thursday and Friday so I was pretty tired. Work has been insanely, but thankfully, really busy for a while now. Tons of sweet babies being born. That usually means I will be really tired on my day off and will rest, not do too much. Not the case this time. Saturday we celebrated with my parents Mother's Day and Father's Day. This was down in Fort Worth where they live. Then I had to come back home and pick Morgan up and head out dancing in Dallas with a few girls and their men from work. We had a lot of fun. I hadn't been dancing in so long and I love to dance!!! I got a new camera that has a different flash that Morgan is apparently not used to because in alllllllll the pictures his eyes are half shut, ugh! He's going to have to work on that because I am not going to have all of our pictures having his eyes half shut. So here are a few pictures of our night out dancing...



Morgan and me...with his eyes half shut. Bless his heart, he tried but just couldn't keep those suckers open.

This is my girl Lydia and her husband. I love this girl!!! Our birthdays are three days apart so we get a long quite well!!! She is always upbeat and smiling. She's such a positive and fun person to be around. Her hubby's name is Rob. They have been married for 20 years...they got married really young. :) I told Lydia that I hope Morgan and I are still that happy and in love when we've been married for 20 years. You can really tell that they absolutely adore each other. We're planning on going to float the river in late July/August and I am so excited!!!

Lydia...one of my favorite people in this whole wide world!!!

This is my friend, Courtney. This girl can make me laugh alllllll day long!!!!! She is also always happy and in a good mood! I just love her, too! She had her cute cowboy hat on so I stole Morgan's for this picture.

We were trying to get a picture of the four girls but it was a struggle. Rob was just snappin' away, never really waiting for us to pose. But I do love this picture of the four of us. It just sums up our fun night!



On Sunday afternoon I went to Stacey's baby shower. I'm soooooooooooo excited to meet baby Cole!!! Stacey was precious, as always. Stacey and I have the same OB. Our OB told Stacey that she's practically the only patient she has that comes in dressed all cute and stylish while most come in wearing t-shirts. Our OB told me that Stacey is an "edgy" dresser...which she is. Even due in 5 weeks, she dresses stylish and fashionable. I hope I am some what like her when I am pregnant. :)

This is Stacey, Christy, and Me. The three of us try and get together frequently for lunch or pedicures. We, plus Polly and her hubby, are trying to get together for a dinner at Joe T Garcia's in Fort Worth. Sitting out on the patio, sippin' a nice cold beverage with some wonderful friends is a perfect evening for me. I love these girls!!!

A girl we went to high school with made this cake. Stacey's theme for her baby shower was Texas Tech because that's where her and Chad graduated from. It was so cute and Mindy did an excellent job. She also did my bachelorette cake which was fantastic!!! Her cakes are not only cute, but taste so delicious. If you need a cake for an event, contact me and I will hook you up with her. You will not regret it.
This is a picture of my bachelorette cake. We put sparklers in a certain area...hehe...and that's what I blew out. So fun!!!

This was made out of diapers and I love how Cole's name is on it. Some people are so creative!! Our friend Polly did it. Polly also did the invitations for Stacey's baby shower and my bachelorette party. I wish I could post those on here because they are the cutest I have ever seen. She draws them by hand and it's done around a picture of our face. Sooooo cute!!!

After the shower, I went to dinner with some of my other friends. I was tired but I would do anything to see the girls. We've been friends for so long and it's always good to catch up with them. We try to get together every other month and so far, so good!!! We're getting together in July for a couple of our birthdays. I feel so blessed to have all of these girls in my life!!!

Leslie (LC), Eeeesttthhhhhhher (esther), Veronica (VO) and Me (forla)...these are our nicknames for each other.